I am a 40-year-old mom and wife and I am on a journey to lose over 100 pounds. It’s been a long time of soul-searching trying to figure out where I went wrong and why I allowed myself to get this way, this far out of control. To be honest I am still figuring this out.
I was not always over weight so I cannot say this is a problem I have always faced. I started gaining weight after I graduated high school. I went through some big life changes my senior year which kicked off my spiral out of control. I was very active before that being in dance, cosmetology and walking and or riding a bike almost daily. I was not a heavy pop drinker and I did not over eat. I was healthy and thin. My adult life however is a different story. Without going into detail I will just say that my senior year everything changed. I was in a new surrounding, new school, new people. No longer was I active, no dance or walking or bike rides and being in a household that ate like a buffet at any time of the day and drank pop like it was fixing to get discontinued. Of course I fell right into this right along side everyone else in the house. This mixed with all kinds of emotions and feelings from being around all new people, making new friends and having a completely different life started me down this path I have not been able to get off. I will not say that I regret the changes because in this I met my husband whom I have been with more than 20 years now and had my son who is almost 17. I wouldn’t trade them for anything and they are the best thing that came out of the situation. I don’t know what caused me to continue doing the unhealthy things I was doing honestly. I think gaining weight even a little made me lose my confidence and self-worth and from there I just got worse and gained even more weight. I finally stopped gaining once I reached a whopping 365 pounds and decided this was enough. I have to get my life back!
I will be honest and say it has not been easy and I have failed myself more than once. I’ve tried weight watchers a few times, diet pills with no success as well. I also went to far with exercise and not eating enough calories per day that my metabolism went down to a crawl. I would lose a little and fall off track. It’s hard to understand the concept that you want something really badly and you don’t get it, you fall off track. So many things have to come into play for the steps of success to work and I simply was not ready to take those steps apparently. The last attempt at this which was over a year ago I started a walk/jog program which was very hard to jog at my weight but I was determined to get this weight off. I began the program 6 days per week, sometimes 7 and was eating only around 1,200 calories per day. I was in pain everyday in my shins from the jogging and was tired all the time from not getting enough fuel for my body. The scales would not move! I couldn’t lose a pound through this so I stopped of course. Then the following summer we spoke with a personal trainer and nutritionist. She put me on 2,000 calories per day, very little to no cardio and weight training 3 days per week. I followed this for 2 months and I lost a lot of inches but scales still did not go down, I was frustrated an again gave up. My husband finally told me it was time to see a Dr. and find out why I am not losing weight. With everything I was doing weight should have melted off. So I set up a visit my Dr. and went in and had lots of tests run. Thyroid, diabetes and a full work up on my cholesterol, triglycerides etc. Everything came back good but thyroid. They said my level was at 15 which should have been around 1. He said it was barely working and was most likely why I was not losing weight. I was put on thyroid hormone medication and after a year of adjusting the meds to get me more level and now at last visit being at a 2 I thought I would try to lose weight again.
So this starts my current journey. I hope you follow the blog and are inspired or motivated to change your life too. I can guarantee I will not be perfect I can guarantee I will have slip ups and learn new lessons along this journey but I will not quit! I will lose this weight.
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